tbqh

sigh
i've been thinking this morning
i really want to leave the kpop fandom, but i need new things to do u_u
well not the kpop fandom, i want to leave the shinee fandom basically because i only listen to them nowadays
sigh so what should i do
orz orz
i love them so much it's unhealthy already so yeah i need to leave them
poor shinee everyone is leaving them

i should start cooking or smthg

bday wishlist

lmao I forgot about this
well actually i am planning to ~reward~ myself for my birthday

so i am so confused what to buy because i want everything in this world
okay these are the things that i want and i might get one of these for myself lol

- simple plan - get your heart on (sob i have always wanted this orz)
- shinee - the shinee world concert in japan photobook
- shinee - diary (sob i don't use diaries but the pics are awesome kjshadkl)
-onew
- lots and lots of hairbands with ribbon kjsdhkjh the ones in sunway pyramid ;~;
- oh yes ok this is shinee's again.. hm QueenCy's DVD u_u she stalked shinee a lot i want her dvd lskdhds
- uhm a new bag ?
- onew
- ring ding dong & the shinee world sobbb the shinee world will do i love all the songs in this album
- harry potter dvd box set lol
- new shoes ;~;
- onew
- can i get an onew sob
- pls

okay so yeah
i want to leave the shinee fandom tbh i hate sme you're making me wanting everythinggg
-

lol okay so

I was backtracking my blog
and I found this http://natashaismail.blogspot.com/2011/01/this-week-is-worst-week-ive-ever-had.html
I don't remember this at all why. It was my worst week but lol how can I not remember it...........

anyway going to make birthday wishes this weekend!

sigh

my body is acting up :(
well this will happen when the exam is coming lol
but tbqh i don't really feel the stress?

well probably this is a sign for me to start studying lol
i haven't decide where to stay on study week
home = on renovation
this house i'm currently staying = no one will be around sigh, and my eating schedule will be so fucked up because i'm lazy

so hmmmmm probably stay at home....and go to the library everyday ?
idk
hm
and trying so hard to reduce my time spent on shinee.............tbh
i hate the fact they are doing so many activities at the end of the year kjshdadfkja

2nd day of december

wow
i'm going to be 21 in a month :/
sigh

anyway our debate has been brought forward at 5am.
we have to be there at 3.....
sigh
it's 1243 i don't think i will sleep orz
and
uhm
i have morning class tomorrow it's at 830 :(
so basically i will be awake for 24 hours.........................since i woke up at 830 this morning............ok

..........

asdfghjklsdfghjk

sigh

i don't know if i am in the right position to say this but hm
or maybe i am not going to say anything at all
i might be at fault in this, but you're not right either
you could have just told me
well it's the past, idk maybe because it doesn't affect you

anyway it's going to be december in 2 hours
wow please be nice

YEAY

Su is back weeeeeee
idk but I'm starting to get busy nowadays I don't even know if I can meet her somehow :(
but can't wait to meet her anyway, will try to squeeze in time here and there.

sigh next week
I have 2 reports to submit based on the seminars we attended.
lots of past year questions from various subjects
OH AND me and Amila entered a debate lol a Malay debate for our carry mark :(
sigh but we didn't prepare anything and oh they debate is on the 2nd of Dec at 6 freaking AM.
MORNING.
AND MODULES ON THE WEEKEND SIGH

hey we had a seminar on sunday morning ^-^

lol it went wayyyy better than what I expected yay
So basically the seminar is about business at a young age and the speaker is like 21 years old fml tbqh
It was very interesting \o/

And now I'm here in Shah Alam sob going back would be such a waste with all the petrol since I need to comeback tomorrow for classes u_u
First Sunday to be in Shah Alam for this semester tbh

And we will be having more seminar tomorrow, it is organised by our class ^-^

sigh I hate being here in Shah Alam sob I'm so behind in the SHINee fandom orz they are so active :(
and Super Show 4 in Seoul sigh

okay whatever I'm going to see SUJU in 2 weeks *excited*

oh wow time flies

Final is getting nearer :o
It's like in 1 and a half months.
Seriously everything went so fast sigh

scary stuff

lmao not that scary hmm okay i rather say it's creepy
it's been 3 weeks that hm
i always look at the clock when it's 12:14 on the afternoon and at night
the only thing i could think of about this is hm Onew's birthday orz
but seriously
everyday
twice
no joke
it's not like i plan to look at the clock at that time
but it has been like this for 3 weeks it's so creepy :(

and sometimes 9:23 that's hm key's birthday lmao but this well not everyday but yeah lots of times in a week
why can't i look at idk 02:01 or 01:02!!! that's my birthday!

oh speaking of which........i am going to be 21 in like one and a half months why

HAY GUYS

I am going to that MO.A MNET LIVE ~.~
I bought the RM250 ticket yesterday~
I got a pretty nice seats yey \o/
Well idk it's far from the stage but lol that's the only ticket I can afford and it's numbered!
All the other tickets are free standing/free seating, dnw to come early orz

cries limited food for the next few months again..........................

My biggest dilemma ok ;~;

So basically this KPOP CONCERT by MNET is confirmed...
I really wanted to go, I mean yes lots of K-pop idols came here already, and I am sure lots more will come in the future.
I really wanted to see f(x) :( and SUJU again, yes I know I have seen them twice.. up close..
but this is a k-pop concert. WITH f(x) sob.
and I am starting to like B1A4 :(

Well I planned to go for the cheapest ticket but sob the cheapest ticket is RM180.
I worked on the 4-month holidays..to save money....for SHINee..yeah that is my biggest problem now.
I have been starving now in university, just so that I won't overspend, so that I won't miss the SHINee concert/fan meeting.
but lmao SHINee has been to all the parts of the world except Malaysia T_T

yeah I really wanted to go, but I have money issues, well not really anyway..
If I bought the cheapest ticket, I will still manage to go to any SHINee events here, if there's any.

The thing is..how do I say this..............................
ugh idk how to put it in words T_T
buying the cheapest ticket is not my thing because idk i think it's not worth it
plus it is a free seating+standing concert i have to queue i hate queuing :(

SHOULD I GO OR NOT

AND ALSO my sister couldn't join me because of SPM T_T

damn why SUJU and f(x) ugh
why SMTOWN artists ughhhhhhhh
I mean if it was SMTOWN I won't think twice ha ha
SMTOWN WORLD LIVE TOUR of course Malaysia ISN'T part of the world


SHINee PLEASE COME I WANT TO SPEND MY MONEY ALREADYYYYY
having this amount of money but you can't actually use it because you want to use it for this particular thing which might not even be happening
i am hurt :(

cries bless your soul if you actually read this T_T

HI ._.

When was the last time I posted here
Cries no one wants to know about my boring life
The things I do in my life..........going to class, making less friends and uhm stalking SHINee orz

Anyway hm I had 3 tests today, the first one was Life and Health Insurance, the questions are pretty easy, if I happened to read the notes.
Being me......I don't read.....but well I think I managed it ?

Contracts Law.....................hm I don't read this subject at all! But I love Mr Tan and I still remember the things he said in classes.....except the cases and sections ~.~
butttt he suddenly said it was an open book test \o/

Mandarin Test lmao orz I caught few words but sob I suck at Mandarin language I should have taken up Korean T_T
but oh well I think I did better than most of the people in that class just now...............

cries Taemin is only 18 and he is going around the world right now why am I still here ok out of topic

by the way I actually love my life right now basically I am alone again!!!!!!
sob the beauty of being alone you don't have to wait for anyone :D

HERRO

We'll be doing community service tomorrow at a school in Shah Alam
I hope everything will turn out good since I don't know
because everyone is busy
and the situation is kind of tense between everyone
I don't really want to take sides so I did my best to hmm
how do I say this.......I tried my best to convince both sides that none of them are at fault
but really everything happened because of miscommunication ~.~
I hope everything will run smoothly tomorrow~
FIGHTING!

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oh god I nearly tag shinee in this post

sdfghjkl;l';kl

:(

KLASDFHJDALHKJF

the broadband line here is like klsfhakjfhk i am so lucky if this gets posted tbh

i feel so hungry rn btw
i just ate like uhm 2 fish balls today well the nuggets were not fully cooked so i threw them away i felt bad for throwing them but sob
and now i am hungry because i am lazy to go down and eat i think i might pass out tmrw or something idk lol

what is a facebook

lmao i should be banned from all these social networking sites :(
i am not active on facebook idek what's going on with other people
plus i don't really know most of them :(
and twitter orz my last update was idk last week ?

sklhfskfhakjdhfkjah

anyway i feel like i am fasting right now......
the only food i ate today was karipap.....this morning
and it is 6 now i am so hungry
but on the bright side i am going to have dinner with amila today at subway! ^_____^

lmfao

you know
when you live above all these restaurants
and you have promised yourself not to spend a lot on foods
because the only things i spent on here in shah alam is food well other than those damn expensive books :(
and you know when you don't even apply for ptptn
and you need to cut down on your expenses
so you uhm don't eat dinner

but there are freaking restaurants downstairs
and people are cooking
and the smell ;A;

i can even hear the sound of rice being put into the rice cooker
crying tbh i was like "tu bunyi berasssssss" :(
okay i will eat as much as i can this weekend because i am so hungry :(

oh and i only have rm4 tomorrow i hope i can survive until 7pm!

presentation on grooming ^____^

we have to do presentation for MGT538
so my lecturer gave us the topics today
lmao i was really hoping for grooming and our group got the topic ^_^
but we have to be the 1st group to present it's okay tho

well the other topics are
uhm communication, time management, stress and one other boring topic

my body isn't cooperating orz

with the stress
friends
i miss semester 2 when i was alone 24/7 i cared about no one and no one cares about me and stuffs like that
ugh i got my second period of the month today
great



well at least onew posted this today
i am so happy u don't even know now i can study happily ^____^

the things happened today

No. Not about facebook haha
I don't really want to say it here but hmmmmmm

It may sounds like I am the selfish one.
But if I were them I wouldn't ask anyone to hm how to say this
I would know my limit and ugh ok whatever

They realised the changes on my face just now and now i feel bad :(

idek why am i so kind and stuff ugh

you know that moment

when uhm
you feel like breaking things
and you only want to cry
uhm
idk what to do anymore ha ha
it's only the second week kasljddfhjsafhksdjkfhksdhaslkjhdkjashdfdhsaklhfkjsd

i don't even feel like eating properly :( these junk foods.............

anyway i am glad that shinee won't be coming here anytime soon because this sem will be so busy and i am so scared that i won't be able to make it and stuff
sob i hope they will make their korean comeback next year ;A;

1st week of 3rd semester~

sooooo i like my new house and housemates~
and my new room is okay too ^_^
so on monday the classes started at 8.30 and the first class was QMT425 and lol i like the lecturer but she's too soft ;~;
so i was like dozing off half the class :(
well monday was okay my classmates were like "tashaaa kenapa kurus sangattttttttt" and i was like "mana adaaaaa" orz

then on tuesday orz INS533 the subject all of were scared the most because of the reputation of the lecturer
the seniors always warned us about him tbh
but i find him really good so i think i will like him but it's insurance law so.........
and my classmates that didn't see me on monday were like "tashaaa kenapa kurusss" and i was like ".....ye ke"

and and on wednesday there's jamuan hari raya uitm we got to eat for freeeeee. and i saw few of my matriculation friends and they were like "kenapa tasha kurus sangat" me------- "..."
and omg lucky us that we went to the jamuan early it was raining cats and dogs right after we went back :D

thursday orz i don't get why but all the foods finished at 1230 i ended up eating maggi :(
and again people were calling me kurus orz

cries we already have so much assignments on the first week :(

but i like all my lecturers this sem! and sdjkfhakdfjh my mandarin language lecturer is a chinese muslim from china!!! she doesn't know malay at all hehehehe
and she reminds me of han geng ;A;

well anyway i don't think i am thin ........... maybe i was really fat before this orz

oh man

the only thing i am going to miss about this holiday is fangirling over shinee tbh
staying up late
because most of shawols are from europe so i have to like stay up so that i can join the fun orz
OTL OTL OTL

ksfhakdhkjfhakjfhljdlkasdfdkhfahkfhskklshfakjdhfkahfkjahhjaskhfkjsd
but
okay
i promised myself to do well this sem so ^_____^
and spend less money
cries
last sem, i spend at least rm10 in a day............. bus lunch dinner.......rm8 for foods
sob but i don't think it's possible to cut down foods cries
how
what should i eat
i only eat chicken
how T_T
o kay hmmmm if i don't bring money to classes i will have nothing to spend...............mhm
well that might works orz
we'll see orz

crying

enjoying my last days of fangirling tbh
;_;
if you follow me on the other blog orz you would know how i spam
cries
well tbh
i won't be online much next week i will be leaving my laptop at home
sob because i don't know my housemates room mates and they are not even uitm students
so i don't think i can trust them yet
well i will see next week~
and i am so worried tbh i don't even know them ;_;
if i can't get along with them i think i will find another house because seriously lmao i can't

sob
waking up early to go to class everyday
take a bus, i will bring car but nope not going to use it to classes~
cries forever on mp3, alone ;_;

oh talking about mp3 heeeeeee i have a new cheap mp3
last sem i used to listen to songs using my phone
but you know the battery will dry out fast and my sister bought this cheap mp3 and lol i want one too
but it's a cheap mp3 what do you expect
cries the flaws ;_;
it will turn to the first song every time it is switched on
so it will be stupid if i have 3247238947 songs in it, and it will plays the first song first no matter what
and not to mention.......there's no shuffle mode
so........
there are only shinee's songs in it
all their songs hihihihiihihihih

oh anyway yea
cries
idk
how to make friends
so
expect another sem without friends ;_;
lmao i have friends
but
well wtv
cries i will miss tumblr tbh ;_;

that's about all good night ♥

lmao

lmao so i was sick
and had a terrible menstrual cramps

i slept at 8 this morning and woke up at 1030 and i was like struggling trembling fighting the cramps
for like half an hour
so i was like no i have to wake up and shower
and i stand up and everything went black lmao remember i didn't eat anything yesterday orz
serves me right
and i took my towel and i fell and i stayed there like 5 minutes but i really think i need to shower
so i went to the bathroom and lmao
i didn't wash my hair because idk orz i nearly fainted in there so i got out of there quickly
took some milo
and
now
i think
i really need
to wash my hair

sob
i hope i can sleep peacefully tonight

7:34AM

didn't sleep
sob
i am so sleepy ;A;

me2day

sob sneezing coughing non stop and sore throat ;A;
the tissues are now my best friends T_T
and this time of the month orz i don't think i'll be sleeping today
oh and the only thing i eat today is 3 spoons of chocolate cake ;A;
cries this must be because of the foods i've been eating the past few days

uni starts in less than a week
idk
lmao
i am excited
but can i just stay at home orz

Eid

well uhm
nothing much happen tbh
but we had the best fireworks this year ^______^
and yeah i didn't even eat much i wonder why.......................

oh btw
we watched smurfs today :D
me and the whole family
cousins aunts
we took up the whole 2 rows~
the movie was well okay

so i made a twitter

well a new twitter for friends
lmao i have one for fandom long time ago
i mean to get updates from suju and shinee's fansites since none of the shinee has twitter bleh

but
orz i really think i need to catch up on friends too since
no one really uses facebook anymore so
hm follow me
if you really know me OTL

i am _natashaismail@twitter :)

oh those days

when i was 146cm
wait i am still 146cm
since idk
since forever
i didn't grow
why ;_;

sob look

time table for next semester
why
8.30am everyday

lmao guys

I made a personality test and this is what I got

You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.

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idk i just can't like anyone rn tbh
orz
going to be single forever ha ha ha

one more month to go

i am kind of excited
well new semester
lesser internet connection
yeay
yeah really tbh this holiday suck

oh and it's already 16th day of Ramadan~

Pottermore \o/

look muggles my 2nd email arrived~~~~~~~
sobbbbbb
i can't wait tbh

sobbbbbbbbbbb

should i make a new neopets account ;A;
i have lots of money in there
and i have 4 pets
and each of them has their own petpets
;A;
my bank account went platinum or some shit
and all the fairy quests i did

lskfhskdhfksdjh
sob
my previous email was blocked because someone attempted to enter it WHICH I DON'T KNOW WHY
and i forgot my neopets password
so i kind of have to email neopets
but they ignore me stupid management
i don't want to make a new account
but i want to play neopets
i miss my neopets ;A;
they are probably starving now :(

110722 Dinner at Secret Recipe

It was great
I was having so much fun talking with Zai :)

We talked about our school days
About how on those days we were so excited when we hang out together
I mean we will like go to Mid Valley.........KLCC.......etc all these far shopping malls
lol i don't get why though
but now we couldn't care less
AEON Bukit Tinggi is fine hehe

and those moments when everyone is dating in the library haha

and Zai kept asking me why don't I have a boyfriend till now
I couldn't figure that out too ha ha ha

but yeah it was great
I wish there was more rather than only 2 of us
but yeah I had fun talking to her

Harry Potter in 99 seconds

sob this is amazing~

sob

I seriously want to write stuffs about harry potter but today SHINee did a concert in Taiwan and Taemin cross dressing and I just can't sob I will probably do it tomorrow

and now I really want SHINee World Concert in Malaysia

Personality Test

I am bored okay

Upbeat

You enjoy being around others and others enjoy being around you. You have a "live and let live" attitude; because you know that no one's perfect, you are forgiving and happy to give the benefit of the doubt.
You don't feel the need to be controversial or express contrary opinions all the time. You see no reason to go around rubbing people the wrong way.

Prudent

You look before you leap, think before you act, consider what you're about to say before you open your mouth to speak; that's why you rarely have to eat your words.
You usually don't get excited easily or blurt out the first thing that comes to mind without considering the consequences.

Calm

You rarely become irritated, generally accept people as they are, take things as they come, and feel relaxed in most situations.
You do not let a minor annoyance escalate to a confrontation. You don't regularly snap at those around you or fly off the handle with little provocation.

Introspective

You like your own company; you're a very interesting person. Tracking your own mental processes, knowing what you're thinking and why you do what you do, is important to you. Often, what's going on in your mind is more compelling than what's going on outside. For the most part, those with a high score on the "introspective" trait enjoy reading, taking long walks, learning new things, and other solitary activities.
You are not someone who is constantly looking to be among a group of friends; you never feel bored when you are by yourself.

Self-Contained

You like to stick to your own business and leave the power struggles to others; you know who you are and what you believe in, but you don't see any reason to impose your values on everyone else.
You generally don't get involved in organizing or motivating people, and you don't feel the need to always be seen as a big public decision-maker.

Impulsive

You trust your your instincts. What others may see as rash behavior is, for you, simply going with your gut. Individuals with a high score on the "impulsive" trait tend to try new, sometimes outrageous, things.
You are not timid. For you, spending time microscopically examining the pros and cons of every decision means never getting anything accomplished.

Unflappable

You are not a slave to your emotions. It takes a lot to upset or unnerve you. That's why you're a good person to have around in a crisis.
You don't let it all hang out, which means that those around you often don't know the pressures you're under or what you're going through. You're not the kind of person people run from in a crisis.

Sympathetic

You have a knack for knowing what's going on in the hearts and minds of those around you, without their having to tell you explicitly. People tend to turn to you with their problems because they know you care, and that you will likely offer good advice and a helping hand.
You do not feel that people with sad stories are just looking for attention, or have brought their problems upon themselves.

Discreet

You tend to hold onto your thoughts until you have something important to say, and even then you're not comfortable imposing your ideas on others unless you know they're truly interested.
You don't enjoy talking for the sake of talking, and you have no desire to be the center of attention.

Cooperative

You enjoy teamwork, play well with others, and prefer getting along to winning.
You're not compelled to win every contest nor to be right all the time.

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well yeah idk u judge
it's from this site
http://www.signalpatterns.com/

so i went shopping today~

i bought a pair of pants a shirt and a cardigan
sob oh i bought 2 shirts
the other one well i don't really like pink but i have to wear pink tomorrow so i bought one!
my sad life i don't have a pink t shirt

my sister spent a lot sob
i don't know but i kinda hate shopping because pants can never fit me i had to alter them every time

tomorrow i am going to a trip with AG so
i hope i am going to have fun ?

ugh

I'm bored
I want this holidays to end
sob another 2 months to go

kljfdskfjdlskajkld
I am on laptop like uhm everyday
maybe I should go out more idk sob

but i am going shopping today so
probably i will just go to cotton on and find stuffs and go back idk sob
my sad life

Left-Right Problem

So i have problems with my left and right
I mean I can't really tell which is left and which is right
I have to look at my writing hand and then I know that it is my left hand
It's kind of dangerous, especially when I'm driving

So I searched it on the internet and this dyslexia came up
idk lol
but this dyslexia looks idk
hmmm it's like people that have problems with b and d
and spellings well i kinda have problems with spelling certain words
words like receive achieve etc it took me secs to actually spell it correctly
but i don't think i am critical ?
but yeah the left-right thing is kind of critical

OH MY GOD FML
I FOUND A LINK
COME READ
http://www.dyslexia.com/library/symptoms.htm

sob this is all me
most of them
i think i have this thing oh my god
dsjfbsdkjfhdkjfhkdjf

what is this
first i am prone to mental problems
now this
..........................okay

Can be ambidextrous, and often confuses left/right, over/under.
omg
i told u i am ambidextrous last month
okay so what do i do now lol
i don't know

live life to the fullest i think :/

well i don't think i was as bad as that site stated but i do have those symptoms

HI ^_^

yes the world needs more positive people

idk guys sobs i rly like simple plan

pierre's voice sobs it's like .......................... lmao i can't even remember when was the last time i listen to them and pierre's voice ................

dont judge me sobs i have cds cassettes of them okay. oh wait signed cassettes of simple plan lmao

i have all their albums they never disappoint me tbh

and sobs idk if i have money to buy their latest album since i am saving for shinee's concert OTL

I have stopped listening to english songs since forever

idk because they sound like crap etc
the only time i listen to english songs is when i'm with other people
that is solely because i respect them okay no more than that

and i can die tbh i mean seriously i can't listen to them unless the singer is britney okay
and simple plan!!!!!!

sobs their new song is so good ;____;

Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 2 trailer

guys this trailer.......is like what i have been imagining it to be all this while
i mean i can tell which scene is which scene in the book
and it looks like as though i have watch it
the part when harry's parents sirius etc came back to life
hogwarts
snape
draco

omg guys can i have the movie now

Watch this lol

if you want, it's okay if you don't lol

Ambidextrous kids more prone to mental issues

I was watching Jonghyun's last week performance on Immortal Songs
he said that he is both-handed
well i know this long ago
but i decided to look at this thing err ambidextrous ?
OTL

i don't know guys but i can write with both hands
it just that it is a bit awkward because i rarely use my right hand to write and and my left hand to eat
but i actually can
i can use chopsticks with both hands
better with my right hand though but yeah
\

and amsdjhskjd kids more prone to mental issues ha ha idk

lol i feel like i am lifeless all the time

i spend my holidays online

honestly i don't really go out other than with my girls

after like a month i went out with my friends for like 4 times only

i didn't watch movies, okay the only movie i watched is kungfu panda with my cousins
the next movie i am going to watch is harry potter and maybe breaking dawn just for the sake of watching it because i watched the other 3 already oh and the only thing i can remember is edward cullen glows

it's like i don't really care whatever around me
idk anymore ;_;

i need help

Hi it's Friday

And I am going to see U-Kiss~
I will try to take as much pictures as I can
Unlike last year =.=
I got a picture of Kiseop's hair only lmao

Oh and I can't wait to see these anti-kpop to rage at us tomorrow~
You know... how the showcase is free, lots of people are coming~
And it will be held at the entrance of Pavillion!!! :D
They will be so pissed ha ha

LMAO it's just that I was so angry with them, still am actually.
They bashed SUJU-M last 2 weeks............
Don't touch my SUJU okay

They used all these bad words to SUJU etc
And some of them are jealous that SJ got to perform for an hour ha ha
I am pretty sure it's because of jealousy

and Mila from AF5 was like
"if Black Eyed Peas ke Beyonce ke takpe jugak"
I was like WTF even if any international artists yang dapat benda tu korang akan jealous jugak

This is the reason why you guys did not excel in this industry.
Jealousy.
Paling paling pun dalam Malaysia je
Not all the artists, some of them.

hmmm just so you know SUJU are in Paris right now with their mates DBSK, SNSD, my babies SHINee and f(x)
They are going to have concerts for 2 days ha ha

okay where was I...
yeah U-Kiss~~~~
hehe I'm going with my sister and cousins~

Ugh

i have a terrible period pain that i feel like removing my uterus using a fork or something
i don't think i will be able to sleep tonight so i will just uhm re-watch hello baby or something

and btw i might be going to u-kiss showcase this friday
eli wait for mehhhh :D
and kiseop and kevin and dongho and soohyun and aj and hoon ^^
huuu xander and kibum ;____;
at least i saw them last year

Differences between listening to the radio and cds

CDs :
I get to listen to the songs that I like over and over again

Radio :
I have to listen to the songs that I don't like over and over again

so yeah cds win \o/

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lol actually last weekend we went to Perak
honestly I don't really listen to the radio anymore
at all
so basically I don't really know what's the latest songs etc
and yeah last weekend I went to Perak
I was driving, my cousins were in the car with me
so it will no be nice if I listen to cds (which are all either korean or chinese)
so we listen to the radio
and i feel like smashing the radio okay

sobs i miss those days when all the songs are nice good etc ;_;

u know like that song the one that girl was obsessed with her bf
that goes "it's all about him him him"
omg it's so annoying okay

2nd day of work today ^_^

It went okay.
It's just that my sister's car acting up that leads to moody!AG ;_;

hm well I send AG to KIWANIS every Monday and Thursday
KIWANIS is an organization that helps children with down syndrome.
I had to stay there until AG finish with all the activities he has to do there

Well the kids there are so lovely.
Hmm half of them are a bit hyper but yeah well they are kids.

And the teachers there really good with the kids ;_;

It's a good place for kids like them~

And I had to stay at my aunt's house from 9AM till 5PM every Monday, Thursday and Friday.
rofl Hayden is so funny I can't :D

And I guess I'd be able to name all these Ultraman after 4 months -_-;;

I FORGOT MY NEOPETS PASSWORD FML

Going to start working on Monday ^^

Well, basically my dad won't let me work TT
I'm going to be working with my aunt~
And it's going to be only 3 days a week so I am not going to be that busy ^^

Exam's Over~~~~

So my exam is over
And 4 months break ahead wooot!
but lol I don't know, I don't think I did well in my exams :(

Oh anyway there's a lot of things I wanted to do but the most important thing is I need to work! sobs

get to know the 2nd child~

ANAK MANJA IBU
sebab apa2pun mesti dia akan diutamakan oleh ibu. apa sikit ibu!!

ANAK DEGIL
Anak kedua dikatakan lebih degil, keras kepala dan tidak mendengar kata. semua dia ajer yg betul..dlm ramai2 adik beradik dia ajer yg KETEGANG .. kemahuan dia kuat.. kalau buat sesuatu sungguh2… kalau tak nak tu, tak nak lah jawabnya, boleh dipujuk tapi selalunya tak berapa jalan..

TAK PANDAI PUJUK
memang anak no 2 ni dia tak pujuk makwe / pakwe dia..

BERCINTA
Tak digoyahkan anak no 2 juga …. dia kalau bercinta, sangat setia…sanggup berkorban …

HITAM / PUTIH
Apa yg dikatakan semua dipegang ( kononnya ) kalau hitam2 hitamlah kalau putih …. putihlah ….degil tak boleh toleransi

HATI
No 2 ni juga nampak ajer keras…tp hati dia lembut juga….SATU lagi peel dia…dia tak boleh ditegur….kalau kita tegur dia mesti tarik muka

BERDIKARI
very independent..mmg betul..tp kalau terlebih indepent pun payah…..TP mudah bergaul..campak lah kat manapun sekejap dah dapat kawan..very take care of her brother and all stuff belonging family.( sebab terlalu ambil berat pun menyampah…semua adik2 kena control kena report kat diorang ) ..

ARAHAN
anak no 2 ni juga dia payah nk terima arahan….dia lebih suka buat hal sendiri pendek kata..tak boleh kerja ngan org…ramai anak no 2 ni keje sendiri

PEMAAF & caring
tak dinafikan no 2 ni pun pemaaf & caring…TAPI awas jgn bg diorg marah….kalau depa marah faham sajer lah

PAKAIAN
Nak ajer up to date…semua nak kemas....


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orz these are so true
got this from facebook btw :3

Berita Minggu article on Kpop

Okay so.... there's this article regarding k-pop on Berita Minggu today.

Let me tell you my story. I've been into k-pop for 3 years already or more I don't know. So basically this news in the Berita Minggu is nothing but to bring down the k-pop fans in Malaysia. Or to encourage parents to prevent their children to be fanatic to Korean Idols or in other words their oppars and unnirs.

Honestly I didn't read the articles, because I hate reading newspaper. I watch news on TV, though. And read them online. But today, there are a lot of people raging on twitter regarding this. I wanted to buy the newspaper but I was late so there's no more left.

So, this entry is whatever I read online. And my sources are reliable. I have seen the picture of the article too.

1. Kpop fans are prone to commit suicide because of Korean Idols

Okay firstly, where do you get this information, again ? As far as I know, NONE of Kpop fans ever commit suicide. Yes the artists do, but I must say, most of them are actors not singers/idols. And we, fangirls are not stupid! I have never thought of doing this. Yes we do use words like "dying" "dead, dead" but I have never heard such things in kpop fandom.

2. Wasting money

Honestly, yes kpop stuffs are expensive because of the shipping of these items like albums, fangoods. However, we didn't buy all of them, not me. Fans bought their albums in Korea because they are a lot cheaper compared to buying them in Malaysia. And buying them in Korea will help the artists to win awards. It's actually a good thing. I have done a survey on this. Because of taxes etc, the prices of albums are more expensive in local stores. Most fans that I know save their money in order to buy these goods. They start working and stuff. Isn't that a good thing for Malaysians ? They are saving and they used the saving to make themselves happy, why do you care though ? It's better that they spend money on kpop rather than drugs etc (sobs I am angry)

3. Pergaulan bebas

I don't even know what to say. I mean this is a lie seriously. All we do is online. Furthermore, most fans are girls. And honestly kpop fans are the only people I could trust on the internet. All we fangirls do are tweeting or twitter, reblogging our idols on tumblr and stalking their korean fansites, their me2day, their twitter, their official sites. We are the most antisocial people in the world. How is this possible. And just so you know, korean idols are not social either. I mean, even if they have girlfriends, they won't announce it. Even if they public knows about their relationships they don't go snogging each other on public.

Example of Korean Idols socializing (for fun :D)
91 liners - hmm this is the group formed because of the idols are all born on 1991, which I think is really cool
ABline - Heechul from Super Junior formed this for those that have AB blood type and they regularly have meetings etc

And you know, when they have fun, it's not like they told everyone what they did etc. They keep everything clean.

4. Over exposing clothes

Yes, the girls might have wear short skirts etc. But, you can't blame kpop for this! This issue has been in Malaysia for a long time ago. Even Malaysian artists are wearing over exposing clothes. Go and talk to them first. And the guys might expose their abs etc but you see when Super Junior was having their concert on the 19th of March this year, none of them reveal their abs. Why ? BECAUSE THEY RESPECT MALAYSIA! And what Malaysia did ? Wrote 2 pages of articles bashing them.

5. Liking them for their looks, variety shows ?

First, I don't like them for their looks!!! And be jealous, their variety shows are really good. They are original. And Malaysians! DO NOT COPY! Unoriginal things are never good. I am saying this because I see nowadays a lot of artists are trying to copy them. Back to the variety shows, they are good. I mean, you try to watch shows from 2006, 2005 they are already great that time. And some of the shows last till today. If the show didn't get good response they will stop it immediately.

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The songs, music videos, lyrics of these idols are inspected really well. If the idols wear inappropriately, they will be banned from performing. If the dance routines are not suitable for younger generations, they idols will be asked to make a new music videos. If the lyrics are not appropriate, they will be banned.

K-pop is not something that bad. If you make your research CAREFULLY, you would know that we make a lot of charities to help people, yes in the name of the idols but we seriously make them. And the funds to Japan, a lot of fandom actually try their best to help the Japanese victims.

A lot of fans are currently studying hard, to get a lot of money so that they can meet their idols in Korea. They are using them as inspirations.

I don't get why people are only showing the disadvantages when there are actually a lot of advantages.

The Malaysian entertainment industry will not go anywhere the media have this kind of attitude. lol

We, K-pop fans need the author to apologize for writing such articles.

and oh http://www.bharian.com.my/bharian/articles/KuasaK-Pop/Article the picture is
Big Bang and Super Junior not 2PM

Me today

hello people
so today, i have been called short hmm twice
sobs

well today is daus and danial's birthdays
so daus left us on january, since he has the free calls from idk maxis/celcom
he called ain and talked to us
i am still not comfortable talking to him so i asked ain to ask him whether he remembers me
and he answered "yes, yg pendek pendek tu"
and i was like TT nuuuuuuuuuuuuuu
then he was like tak lahh yg comel comel tu hahaha

and then, right after that, RIGHT AFTER THAT
i went to the toilet, so on the way to the toilet
there's this guy from the business library was rushing out of the library
so we almost bump into each other
and he was like ' ehhhhh tak perasan pendek sangat'

I WAS LIKE WTF
I AM BEING CALLED SHORT BY A STRANGER
.......................

;_;

HI \o/

so i went to program anak angkat last weekend with my classmates
it was awesome
i didnt expect it to become that happening
i would like to go to these kind of programs if i got the chance ^^

and the people there said our batch is like one of the best :D

i enjoyed myself
lol and that's the problem with me
i dont socialize with my classmates ._.
there are times there when i felt like i was onew in the idol sports ;_;

but lol idc haha

What a disgrace to the country

http://ireport.cnn.com/docs/DOC-570978

seriously oh my god
you don't make jokes out of this.
it's a natural disaster.

and the people commenting too
do you people have to tell the whole world the things you don't like about your own country

Japanese ;_;

Keep praying for them :(
I hope there are no more dead bodies.

abandoning my blog rofl

I don't even know what to write haha

well i'm kind of busy

when i am not busy i will look for shinee videos so yeah

and of SS3 concert in 2 weeks woot woot

i hope that i got good pictures of yesung sungmin etc

okbye

Hi

Sometimes, the person who tries to keep everyone happy is always the most lonely person, so never leave them alone because they will never say that they need you.

You lose a lot of time, hating people. ~Marian Anderson

what a week haha

i don't know why but i was/am really not happy
what happened this week..kay minus tomorrow sat sun

- alone all the time ; in the library, going to class etc
well i chose to be alone actually

-i cry a lot except when i am at home

and seriously things that make me happy is home and kpop and old friends ;_;


jhsdgkfjhdkjshksfjfhklsdfhjdjkfhdkjhsl help

honestly

I know that there's something wrong with me.
I told myself not to hate people bla bla
But sobs I prefer to sit ~alone~ listening to songs etc
AND WHEN I AM ALONE I'LL BE LIKE WHY AM I ALONE!
but when I am with others I will feel like I want to kick all of them and ask them to be quiet

why am i like this sobs

sobs i wish there were less people following me on the other blog

Lesen P expires esok rofl

Ingat nak ulang alik from UiTM but I guess not.
If dapat renew esok...
OTL

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;_;

i am just going to leave this here

For future references in case I forget or something.

Finance
-Past Year
-Financial Analysis + Sources and Uses of funds

Marketing
-Past Year (year 2009 for both sems)
-A product to promote OTL

CTU
-Islamisasi di alam melayu (faktor pemangkin)

Insurance
-download past year
-tutorialssss
-read chapter 1 2 3 for quiz after CNY
-group work (interview sobs, questionnaire)

Mandarin
-exercises, dialogue
-quiz after CNY

HRM
-quiz after CNY



FML and yes these are my assignments that are due right after CNY!

;_______; ;~~; T_T

i have too much assignments i can die

ASSIGNMENTS!

Sobs the last few weeks I was like so happy that all the lecturers didn't even bother to give us assignments.

...but this week all of them decided to give us a huge pile of assignments ;_;
what should i do......
I will start with mandarin OTL

This week is the worst week I've ever had :(

MONDAY
I was late to class because of the traffic jam.
I was like 10 minutes late.. then I found out that I missed the first quiz ;_;
But it's all cool some of my friends that did the quiz got 0 marks so yeah.
Then.. in the lecture I was paying good attention and then just at this one part.. my classmate asked me about the assignment for Finance and Insurance.
As I was explaining to him my lecturer was like;
"you! the one with specs sit here in front of me and this will be your place for the whole semester" ;_;
I'm still okay with that I've been dying to sit in front though.
OH THE GOOD THING ABOUT MONDAY! SOBS I LOVE MANDARIN CLASS.
My laoshi can't stop dancing/singing to Sorry Sorry :D

Okay back to bad week

TUESDAY
2 classes were canceled asklhfkd
Then in CTU my lecturer explained all those things that are needed for the subjects sobs
CTU is boring and melecehkan.
Then I started to feel sick ;_;

Wednesday
I can't get up.
My body temperature was like so high.
I went to class anyway.
With dizzy head and all.
But the morning class was canceled!!!!!!
I was so angry!
Then I was supposed to have class at night.
We didn't know where the class was so we called our lecturer.
He was like find it yourself.. after more that 1 hour later he told us that it was postponed ;_;
DID I MENTION THAT I WAS SICK!

Thursday
I didn't go to class nothing much happened

Friday
I got back.
I was really happy at first but.... OTL
I accidentally hit my house gate when I was reversing my mom's car ;_;
One of the screw of the car fell off.
And I dropped lots of my foods today too
I wonder what will happen tomorrow ksakljlafd

WHAT A WEEK

Beyond Wong Ka Kui - "Under a Vast Sky"

GUYS THIS IS MY CHILDHOOD GUYS!
OMG
THIS IS THE SONG I LISTEN TO EVERYDAY WITHOUT FAIL

I feel sad

I don't even know why ;_;

Hai everyone haiiiiiii

Look at this
http://izzatiadibah.blogspot.com/2011/01/when-heights-put-smile-on-your-face.html

;~~~~~~~~~~~;
I love her sklafjl;sdkjfl;j

Oh btw, my parents asked me what do I want for my birthday..
And I answered nothing lol
No really I'm not used to having birthday presents from my parents.
Seriously.
Birthdays are not really that important to my family.
When I was little I don't really get presents unless they were from my relatives.
But we did have dinner.
But I like it like that :)
So when they asked me what I want.. I really can't answer what.

And that day when my sister was watching Marry Me Mary the 14th episode.
So since I'm here using broadband.. I couldn't watch the drama.
Then my mom said she will buy me the drama when it comes out!!
I prefer Hayate the Combat Butler but yeah whatever at least I won't have to download the drama :D

OKBYE